Lexie's Life - by LexieLoveless.
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In this blog, you will read my deepest darkest secrets. Some of them may be about you; while some may not. You are agreeing to look as soon as you click "entries." I try to avoid saying names in my blogs, but if your name is on there, get over it. You've agreed to enter, so it's all on you. ~Lexie
morning folks.
Thursday, September 2, 2010, 5:15:00 AM
it's 5:15 in the morning and i am fucking exhausted. i don't have my medicine so i can't fall asleep. i am so tired. i already have enough troubles ha. so there's a huge clog on top of the roof (go figure?!). It made our garabage desposal throw up on my mom. it was actually kind of funny but my mom put me in check when i started laughing. anyway, i'm really too tired to go into details but lil miss sunshine probably was the cause. haha.
fuck
Tuesday, August 31, 2010, 11:01:00 AM
Well my life officially sucks balls inside and out. Anyhow, things happened and now heres the drama. I'm tired of trying. All it gets me is no where. No matter how hard I try, things always break apart. I try and be strong like everyone tells me, but it's easy said than done. Things like this are hard to overcome. I am tired. I get tired. I have feelings. Just like everyone else. I am no different then any other human. We are all different, but the human characteristic will never leave us. The human anatomy will never leave us. Even in death, we are still humans. Anyway, enough with the Science. I just want to give up. Suicide isn't the answer. I know it. But sometimes I wonder if my life is worth living. I know it is, in some ways. But I just wonder what my purpose is. Is it to live? Or is it to die. I have no clue, and neither does anyone else. I made like a song, it's about when Jose broke up with me in June.
I was standing in front of you,
trying to talk to you.
You wouldn't be a man,
you didn't give a damn.
My heart is falling apart.
You're throwing sticks at me; almost like darts.
Please listen to me.
Please listen to me.
You aren't going to walk away.
Because every bray-kin' day,
I feel you.
I see you.
I hear you.
I know you.
Every bray-kin' day.
Please listen to me.
Please listen to me.
Your life is worth everything to me,
what can't you fucking see?
I would have gotten hurt either way,
so please don't leave me cuz' I won't stay.
Repeat Chorus
Every bray-kin' day.
Please listen to me.
It's stupid I know. I used some of the lyrics that Lynne had said she dreamed about. She said she was at my concert and Sean, her son, was playing bass and I was singing that song. It's a little weird. I think the song in her dream was 20x better than this song I just made.
Ruby is being Miss. Lovebug. LOL. Anyway, I'm finished for the day.
Well, schools coming and I'll be posting a lot more..
Sunday, August 29, 2010, 12:54:00 PM
Good afternoon! Lately my life has been stressful and complicating, but I haven't let that bring me down! I'm pretty happy with myself right now, some things not so much, though. I have made a lot of friendships this year; especially since I began high school in oh nine. I love school -- and that is a definite. I like my life. It's pretty interesting. I haven't really been myself lately, though. I made a lot of mistakes; some were just destined to happen, you know how it is bloggers. My life is well-- different. I expected it to be that way. I love it though, so whatever. I wouldn't change a single person in my life.
Sophomore year, here I come! I'm so fucking happy with myself! So much is going for me! Everything is finally coming together. This August, I began going to New Beginnings Outreach Youth Group every Friday with my friend Jessica Ortega. It has been amazing! I never knew how many great people I'd meet! Jessica taught me something new. Well the pastor and Jessica. Sometimes in order to make new friends, you have to go out of your comfort zone. It makes total sense, too. When you're around people you don't know, you feel this level of uncomfortable. You can't lie either, it IS very uncomfortable being around people you don't know. I've made a ton of new friends and I'm so happy I did! Thanks Jess!
The broken pieces of my life are finally coming back together.
Homelessness
Sunday, June 13, 2010, 11:25:00 AM
is calling.
10 days of Freshmen year remaining.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010, 10:44:00 AM
Freshmen Year: Tallwood High: Home of the Lions
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This year was fun; well I guess. I just can't wait for sophomore year. I was a lion cub, and now I'll be a young lioness. I'm glad I've finally finished this year with flying colors. My life has changed a lot. I've lost people and I've gained people, but it all turned out to be amazing. Thank YOU, Tallwood High, for changing my life.
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June 5th 2010
Wednesday, June 2, 2010, 10:56:00 AM
is my prom. [: I'm excited! I get to go to mi amor's house.
Lo amo tanto. Me hace tan feliz. Creo que es el amor de mi vida.
okay, i'm just okay now.
Thursday, May 6, 2010, 10:51:00 AM
English - E
Science - C
Health/P.E. I - D
Algebra - C
Introduction to Childhood Developement - A
Okay, I know I need to pull my E and D up, but guess what! It's easy! I'm so happy now because I was so scared! (Considering I'm a straight A student.)